New Year's Resolution

It is Thursday, 8th December 2011. Perhaps a strange time for a New Year's resolution, but then perhaps not, after all Advent is the beginning of the new Christian year. In any case, I had an urge, an itch that needed scratching.

So here I am, a church leader with no church, resurrecting a blog that I struggled to update, even when our church was operational.

Why now?

For several reasons.

Number one: Georgia noticed the blogspot logo on my favourites bar. "One Twenty-Seven's got a website?" she said.

"Er, yeah. Well, it did." I felt sheepish, like I'd done something wrong, and maybe I have done something wrong. Maybe I've spent the past twelve months letting too many things slide. Things which matter.

Number two: I had two resolutions last year, and in my heart I was fully committed to these two: get a job and write a book. With 23 days to go, neither resolution looks set to be fulfilled. That leaves me feeling like I've failed, like I'm a failure.

Number three: 2011 has been my annus horribilis. The very very worst of my thirty four years on earth. A year of death and despair, of frustration and fear.

So here I am, a despairing failure who has done so many things wrong, needing guidance.

I'm going in search of that guidance this year, and I'm not going alone.

Much love x